Week 12 and I think I am starting to show a little bit! As excited as I am, I am weirdly self-conscious of my changing body. I’ve always tried to stay in shape and avoid having the dreaded ‘pooch’ belly but now it is always there! I know that this is all normal and it is the magic of having an entire universe growing in your belly, but it is still going to take some getting used to. I am still trying to wrap my head around all of this and full embrace all the changes, it might just take me some time.
Last night, someone asked me if i was pregnant. I was so caught off guard and was instantly offended, like ‘how dare you assume that!” Is it just me or is it rude to ask someone that ? Especially if you are unsure AND if the person is only 12 weeks!!! It made me uncomfortable and angry. But why? I mean, I am pregnant after all.
It’s very strange to me. It is weird to not recognize your body. To have no control over the changes. To not feel like yourself. But this self, is only the surface level of who I am. The essence of my being and everything that makes me, ME, is on the inside. No external changes, will every change that.
“Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead let life live thru you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come.” -Rumi