I haven’t been writing lately. I have started and stopped quite a few posts because I just couldn’t figure out what I wanted to say. I didn’t feel like I had anything worth writing about. The truth is, the days blend together and just fly by as we get ready for this amazing little man to arrive. It is all that I can think about.
We’ve had a few hiccups throughout the pregnancy and now this little stinker is breech! Any crazy remedy, method or positions I can find, we are trying. At the end of the day though, this little guy is running the show. He is going to come into this world when he wants and how he wants, and I think that I need to just surrender to that . Give up control and put my trust in this tiny human. Trust that he knows what to do.
It is hard when you have this perfect vision of how you want your pregnancy, labor and birth to go and then you realize that it may not happen that way. This is why I have always been a firm believer in not thinking too far ahead or over anticipating anything. It can really mess with your head when things don’t go as you planned them. I still have faith in this little guy though. I know the control is in his hands and that however he chooses to come into this world, it will be beautiful. He will come into a room full of love and peace and at the end of the day, that is all I want. For him to know that he is so greatly loved from the moment he is born.
The excitement has taken over. Basically anytime in the next few weeks, he will be here. No matter how he comes. We will have our baby boy in our arms soon. So soon. This is surreal. This is magic.